Closed Chapters.

The statement "mother knows best" is so true sometimes. I know that I have expressed some hurtful and awful things about my mother, and this past weekend I just had to apologize. It's truly amazing how we put ourselves in situations, and God allows us to fall just so we can look back, like "Oh! That's what you meant?" I gave it one more chance with my high school sweetheart. After 6 years on and off, 3 kids, multiple females, lies and indiscretion...Im done. It took so long for me to see what my mother, and closest friends were trying to show me the entire time. I'm the type of person who has to make her own mistakes and BOY did I make them. I wanted to believe that he and I could be the difference. I wanted to believe that him, myself and his children could be this beautiful blendid family. Apparently he was playing the family man with other families...several at that. Arguing with my mother about the "love of my life" and she looks me in my eyes and says "Ashleigh, that is not your man." Of course my eyes rolled and an abrupt walk off followed, how she gone tell me that's not my man? Well, a mother knows her child. Later on after that conversation I was talking with my friend, we made plans for church and said our goodnights. Not even five minutes later she texts me asking was I with "my man" I replied no, and the shock begins to roll in. Pages upon pages, pictures upon pictures of him and his girlfriend...who by the way wasn't me! I am completely dumbfounded looking at my phone. I cannot believe I let this mf in AGAIN, and you do the same ish AGAIN?! I don't even know what to say or do, he seems so happy with her. He seemed so excited to meet her parents, and it's almost like is this really the same person who told me he loved me an hour ago? I felt defeated so I went to sleep, I wasn't going to allow this to ruin my Easter. I press on trying to enjoy the word, and then all of a sudden my other best friend text me asking had I seen his fb page? I informed her I knew and she provided encouragement. I could no longer listen to how God died and rose for my sins, stepping outside I called my friend and just sobbed. I wasn't even angry, I was so embarrassed. I told her I had nothing to say and I wasn't going to push the issue, she said verbatim "I know you're in church, but I'm not. F**k that! He gone get his, send me all the pictures you have of you and  him." It's such a blessing to have incredible friends through good and bad, she proceeds to post pictures tagging him and his gf headlining the post "what's done in the dark, will come to light" and you can call it what you want, I call that love. The day progresses on, and I realize I owe my mother a HUGE apology.  She knew that he was no good, and I deserved SO MUCH MORE than a man with 3 kids. I weeped in her arms, told her she was right about EVERYTHING, and thanked her for being my mom. The moment that we shared will forever be in my heart, and in that moment I discovered how great of a person she can truly be. Some how some way my friend contacted his gf and she then contacted me, we shared stories. Turns out they've been together about the same time he and I have as well. I could pass out, I'd given my all. There was nothing that he couldn't have or was ever denied. Going against my family for you? That was my first mistake. I laugh thinking about the matching "loyalty" tats we were supposed to get. Loyal? Yeah right. Anyway, I'm not really that hurt. I was looking for a way out, just didn't think it would be this way. However this is the end, I'm done. The last chapter of our saga volumes: 1,2, & 3 are closed. I thank God for  being set free, and now that my henderence has been removed, God can work on me, and bring me who I'm truly supposed to be with.